It's Showtime!

yesterday was my and pwincess' first trip to KKH Children's Emergency..

thanks to pwincess for the first time experience.. hehe..

well it all started out in the afternoon yesterday when mum told me that pwincess couldnt move her left arm.. wenever mum tried to lift her arm, she'll cry.

i rushed home and when i tried, it was the same. when dad came home, we decided to bring her to KK to check.

in the car, when she is well, she'll be jumping around, not wanting to sit still.. TETAPI sakit nyer pasal, duduk diam jer.. baik betol.. bila kasi susu, minum pelan2, tak tendang2, tgn tak gerak2..

upon reaching the emergency dept, there were so many kids waiting with their parents.. some were just a few days old and wailing.. so pitiful..
this pwincess of mine was awfully quiet too, no smiles, no laughs.. and she longlaikan lengan kiri dia.. like so functionless..

then the nurse called us to get pwincess temperature before registration, the nurse massaged her arm and 'manipulated' it abit, then pwincess started to smile. i tot she was just being frenly.. RUPANYER si pwincess mentel ni dah ok! right after that, she was playing with her butterfly toy and her hands tgh mcm uli roti prata.. tak tau diam..
geram sungguh!

when we finally met up with the doctor, pwincess was already laughing and smiling and moving her hands.. doc said that she may have dislocated her elbow slightly since she's learning to turn and lie on her tummy. her arm may have got under her body and she may have pulled it too hard. since it is ok now, then pwincess can go.. geram kan!!!

anyway... pwincess is a whooping 7.2kg baby at 4 and a half months old. hehe..
alhamdulillah.. sihat pwincess aku ni satu..hehe..

so there, pwincess first trip to KKH with mama.. geram~~~

updates by BiG MoMMa at 13:54 | Permalink | Comments

i am tired..

physically tired..

mentally tired..

WHERE'S MY DESERVED BREAK???
cant u see IM IN NNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDD of it???

tak nampak ke??

please shoot.me

updates by BiG MoMMa at 17:58 | Permalink | Comments

D reminded me of an email that i sent her a gazillion years ago when she was damn pissed with me.. yah i aint no perfect bestfren u know.. so i DO make mistakes..
ANYWAY the email ended with this...

Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen...
We came to the world not to find someone perfect to love...
BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly...
Life need not be perfect to be wonderful...

the above quote is so true.. so so true...
dunno y some pple are just so eager to perfect that special someone to become to what they want, instead embracing the natural beauty of the other party..

i admit, last time, i used to make B stop smoking, cos I didnt like the smell and the smoke blowing in my face. but B being the loveliest partner, tried with all his might, even tho i did catch him red-handed once (hehehehehe! gotcha!). Then after a while of me being happy that B was going my way, i noticed he was getting less cheerful and didnt eat much.. only then i found out that he was having withdrawals.. so bad of me.. there was one thing he couldnt sleep at nite, cos he didnt smoke for the whole day.. *sigh* i felt so damn bad..

then i started to loosen up... let him smoke as and when he wants.. he was happier.. and things got better for us cos we respect each other's needs better. he will smoke, but he makes sure that he will not let the smoke get into my face/direction.
so see, i still get my way, and he still get to smoke...

there are other instances where we managed to work things out where we BOTH get to gain from.. its a win-win situation.. like now, with pwincess around, at times, he will help to change the diapers only when im damn busy at home.. else i will do it and he will help me to prepare the wet wipes and diapers and cream etc..
now that is called teamwork.. dats y i love B.. we work things out for both of us to gain benefits from.. of cos pwincess gains the most lah.. hehe..

most importantly, i learnt to love B perfectly.. tho i've not reached 100% perfection for him, i love him for being him.. his rounded head, his pouting lips, his munchong mouth, his cheeky smile, his skinny body and loads of other things lah..

so B..
thank u for all these years..
thank u for the years ahead..
thank u for loving me, the wacky, the temperamental, the giler me..
thank u for supporting the family..
thank u for the hugs and kisses every nite..
and most importantly,

thank u for the SWENSENS' MEAL that u gonna treat me tonite!!! kehrkhehkrkhehre..

MUAAAAAHHHHZZZZ!!!

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